heymacareyna

YSO 2025 intro post

2025-05-25T23:06:16Z

Hello again! After a year off, I've rejoined the Yuri Shipping Olympics on Team Caitvi (Arcane).

Name: Holly

Age: 30

Pronouns: she/her

Location/Time Zone: Maryland, USA (GMT -5:00)

My fics are up on AO3 under heymacareyna.

I'm also active on Tumblr as heymacareyna and on Bluesky as heymacareyna.bsky.social.

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(don’t) leave me alone

2023-09-29T19:43:57Z

when we first met, I thought you were

annoying.

beneath me.

I thought a lot of myself then,

or at least I pretended to.

(get out of here)

when you followed me around, I got

snooty.

I asked you for a “-sama”

because that was expected of

the persona I’d crafted.

you were supposed to

fall in line,

believe the acting.

why didn’t you?

(go away)

I’m better than you.

superior.

aren’t I?

(wait)

you love without conditions and I am

lost.

I’ve never known this before,

never had anyone genuinely

want me

just for being me.

you watch me and you

smile and I

want to smile back,

though I don’t know how.

(don’t go)

I’ve never felt this either—

the fondness,

the affection

(not possessiveness

but something deeper).

I want to know you,

every inch of you,

despite old habits screaming to keep you at arm’s length

because it’s safer that way.

but maybe I want more than safety now.

(it’s a lonely thing, safety.)

maybe I want

bright blue eyes

and an open smile

and a soft heart

and the warmth of your hand in mine.

maybe I want you after all.

(stay)

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“the admirer”

2023-09-29T19:33:03Z

I want to be you.

surely that’s all it is.

I stare in awe

from across the studio—

your beauty,

your grace

inspire me.

the way you move

sends shivers across my skin.

ballet has never been more beautiful.

I am light and airy in white

while you are dark and sensual in black,

everything I’m not—

and I can’t say it out loud

but I think I like that.

you wear shadows like a form-fitting gown,

and you’re the belle of the ball.

a princess indeed.

this whole time,

I thought I was jealous over Mytho,

but maybe I’m just jealous

him

for being the one in your arms.

your touch would be magical,

your kisses spellbinding.

do I want to be you,

or do I just

want

you?

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WIP Big Bang #1

2023-08-08T16:47:51Z

Story Title: bring me java, bring me joy

Fandom: Arcane

Link: https://archiveofourown.org/works/40935846/chapters/102585999

Summary: Vi is a barista at League Café. Every day, world-famous actress Caitlyn comes in and orders the same coffee. Every day, Vi spends a little too much time thinking about her. Caitvi fluff leading up to smut.

Word Count: ~12k

Rating: E

Warnings: Adult language, sexual content

Characters: Caitlyn Kiramman, Vi, Jinx

Pairings: Caitlyn/Vi (aka Caitvi, Violyn, Piltover’s Finest)

When I Started: I posted chapter 1 on AO3 on 10 August 2022 and then never touched it again.

How I Lost My Shit: I got overwhelmed with so many stories to write, and this one (the newest one) was the first to fall by the wayside as I focused on contracted original writing instead.

How I Finished My Shit: Someone shared a post about WIP Big Bang on a Discord server, and I thought it sounded like just the kick in the pants I needed to finish this fic.

Moodboard: thank you to the talented @dragonroses on tumblr!!

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YSO Intro Post

2023-07-09T23:25:29Z

Hello! I've joined Dreamwidth for the Yuri Shipping Olympics, on team Caitvi (Arcane: League of Legends).

Name: Holly
Age: 28
Pronouns: she/her
Location/Time Zone: Maryland, USA (GMT -5:00)

My fics are up on AO3 under the same username, heymacareyna.

(I will update this post as I figure out Dreamwidth and the YSO lol)

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