annoying.
beneath me.
I thought a lot of myself then,
or at least I pretended to.
(get out of here)
when you followed me around, I got
snooty.
I asked you for a “-sama”
because that was expected of
the persona I’d crafted.
you were supposed to
fall in line,
believe the acting.
why didn’t you?
(go away)
I’m better than you.
superior.
aren’t I?
(wait)
you love without conditions and I am
lost.
I’ve never known this before,
never had anyone genuinely
want me
just for being me.
you watch me and you
smile and I
want to smile back,
though I don’t know how.
(don’t go)
I’ve never felt this either—
the fondness,
the affection
(not possessiveness
but something deeper).
I want to know you,
every inch of you,
despite old habits screaming to keep you at arm’s length
because it’s safer that way.
but maybe I want more than safety now.
(it’s a lonely thing, safety.)
maybe I want
bright blue eyes
and an open smile
and a soft heart
and the warmth of your hand in mine.
maybe I want you after all.
(stay)
surely that’s all it is.
I stare in awe
from across the studio—
your beauty,
your grace
inspire me.
the way you move
sends shivers across my skin.
ballet has never been more beautiful.
I am light and airy in white
while you are dark and sensual in black,
everything I’m not—
and I can’t say it out loud
but I think I like that.
you wear shadows like a form-fitting gown,
and you’re the belle of the ball.
a princess indeed.
this whole time,
I thought I was jealous over Mytho,
but maybe I’m just jealous
of
him
for being the one in your arms.
your touch would be magical,
your kisses spellbinding.
do I want to be you,
or do I just
want
you?
Fandom: Arcane
Summary: Vi is a barista at League Café. Every day, world-famous actress Caitlyn comes in and orders the same coffee. Every day, Vi spends a little too much time thinking about her. Caitvi fluff leading up to smut.
Word Count: ~12k
Rating: E
Warnings: Adult language, sexual content
Characters: Caitlyn Kiramman, Vi, Jinx
Pairings: Caitlyn/Vi (aka Caitvi, Violyn, Piltover’s Finest)
When I Started: I posted chapter 1 on AO3 on 10 August 2022 and then never touched it again.
How I Lost My Shit: I got overwhelmed with so many stories to write, and this one (the newest one) was the first to fall by the wayside as I focused on contracted original writing instead.
How I Finished My Shit: Someone shared a post about WIP Big Bang on a Discord server, and I thought it sounded like just the kick in the pants I needed to finish this fic.
Moodboard: thank you to the talented @dragonroses on tumblr!!
